Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Pinch Me!

Happy St. Patrick's Day!
I am not wearing green today. I forgot :(
Pinch me.

I will be at St. Patrick's Parish for RCIA class tonight. How fitting!

Wedding Update: Dress

As I said in a previous post, this weekend was wedding dress shopping. My two sisters, my best friend and my mom all came down to do the trek to 3 stores with me. I had originally planned to go to 4, but after going to the first one, I cancelled the last appointment.

(Sorry, no pictures on the blog. I don't want it out there for all to see before the big day.)

I now have two dresses that I love. I'll refer to them as dress 1 (which I found in the very first store) and dress 2 (which I found in the last store). They are very similar in style, but have quite different accents. They have different necklines, different skirting and different material. The bodice is almost the same on both. Dress 1 is not your typical dress. Yes it is strapless, but the neckline isn't one you can characterize. It's not sweetheart or straight. Dress 2 has beautiful sparkles that shine in the lights.

I will have to go back and try on the two dresses once more and bring my dad with me so he can see them. There is only $100 difference in price between the two, so that isn't a factor. Sometime early June or July I'll have him come down so we can make a deposit and get me fitted!!

One thing that surprised me about shopping was the addition of the veil. I was sure that I would never want a long veil. Turns out, the only kind of veil I want is a cathedral length. I tried one on and fell in love with it. The way it drapes down the back and over the train is gorgeous. I tried this length of veil with both dresses and it works with both.

Since I had my bridesmaids with me, I also had them try on dresses. I found my color (Sharmrock) in a dress and had them try it on. Hideous! We are definitely not having shamrock as the color. Just based on the dresses, I believe it is going to be clover or olive colored instead. Still in the green family, just not as bright.

It was a good wedding weekend. I managed to find 2 dresses, decide against my original color and discovered I want a cathedral length veil.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Therapy Tuesday: On the Pole

One-armed spin combos. Hooray!!
I need to work on conditioning my body so they are easier. I can manage to do a 3 spin combo with one arm. Only one though. I'll have to come up with a few more combinations in order to build the strength.

Lazy-one-up into a butterfly. Didn't think I could do that. I tried it and voila! No problem at all. I had to do it a couple more times just to be sure it wasn't a fluke.

Also go the catepillar push 3 times. My record before was doing the move twice in a row. Now I can do three! Next is working on four. When I can successful do the move five times in a row, I will push myself to start doing the catepillar crawl. This is when you climb up the pole backwards.

All in all, it was a great class. I accomplished something, I had a great workout, and great conversation with the girls.
I heart pole!

Therapy Tuesday: Off the Pole

I've started going to therapy to try and reduce my stress levels. I've gone before a number of years ago to help me get through a rough time in my life, so I know it works.
I went for one meeting over a month ago, and I felt peaceful afterwards. It didn't last long. the day continued and I felt overwhelmed, and everything went back to "normal".
I had some homework assignments from Session 1.
  • Complete an autobiography - This was very humbling and brought up a lot of memories, some that I had forgetten, some that I wish I had. I loved this assignment.
  • Start going through a CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) workbook for anxiety
  • Track my moods and what triggers any changes
After Session 2, we've thrown out two and three on that list. I over analyze things and dwell on things too much. We are taking a different approach now. Reduce stress not by attacking it's source, but by doing positive things to combat it. So instead of thinking of how "cruddy thing 1 and 2" made me anxious, I should think of how "happy thing 1 and 2" made me feel and why. I need to concentrate on amping up doing the things I love and make me happy. I have also been recommended to go to a group therapy class for anxiety. My stress/anxiety has caused me to lose about 15 lbs and I'm not boardering on an unhealthy weight. Finding like-people would be beneficial. I feel alone in this battle a lot of the time, even with the support of family and friends.

I have new homework assignments:
  • Increase doing things I love - I will pole more than just once this week. I will sit and read my book.
  • Take walks and get some fresh air. The exercise will help. I can certainly do this and at the same time train Beta! Two birds with one stone.
  • Focus on telling myself I'm beautiful, not too thin, and it doesn't matter what people say.
  • Learn that "it doesn't matter"
I think I can manage to do two of those with no problem. The second two will take some work, and time.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Movie Review (2): Shutter Island

My fiance, my best friend and I all went to the this movie on Saturday night. I loved it! Here's why:

It got you thinking. There was that feeling of "somethings not right" through the whole thing. I would love to see it again and look for the subtle clues that I know are in there, I just missed. The story was interesting, touched on a few different aspects and was a different from what I thought it was supposed to be.
DiCaprio did an awesome job. He was believable as the character. You really felt what he felt and for me, I was shocked and in disbelief when his character was.

The music made me giggle a few times. It was very "Alfred Hitchcock". It was creepy and certainly added to the forboding feel the movie had. My best friend said she would probably have trouble sleeping that night.

I would recommend this movie for sure. I would also recommend that go when you are awake. It's a little slow, but not in a bad way. The character and story development is essential and the thought process to understand the little messages will have you thinking even after the show.